CC - Log 1

From Commander Cream,

It's right about mid-October right now, I've been gone from DHM since early June, so give or take 4 months or so. I still update this wiki every once in a while, mainly just my own page to make info current, despite not even being a member of the community anymore. I thought I make a lil log thing just cuz to give my general thoughts.

I wonder if I'm banned or not? Not sure what they've been talking about, if I'm as hated or liked as before, but knowing how it worked at one time, my guess is that it could really go either way. However the community is generally built on hate, so that is probably what will circle back around to me. None of that matters now.

It's only been four months but it feels like a year. I finally lost my desire to be a part of the community, and I don't really use Discord that much anymore, but I'd say it honestly took two of those months to get to that point. I'm really happy I did though, obviously.

I hate the lasting effects though. I still open up Discord randomly out of habit sometimes when I'm on my phone. Plus I feel like I talk with a looser toung than before, but that's always been a bit of an issue for me so it's hard to tell.

Tibs seems to be doing better. Good for her. Everyone talks about how Discord was the worst thing that happened to them but it seemed to have some of the worst effects on Tibs from what I've gathered.

Now don't get me wrong, I still like to dig at things. I can't help it, I love detective shows. So I try not to take things at face value, but truly I think of all the DHM members Tibs got it the worst, because everyone else was already bitter.

Everyone's a teen though, so that's not to say it's easy for anyone. I can say that with confidence. Lately though I've found it hard to be full of hate, at least to hate some people. I guess love will do a few things for you, but so will sadness, and some people just aren't able to talk all the time, so I have to take the later.

I'm still tired.